I usually don't blog about what's going on in my personal life, but I figure I probably should. One, at least I can get these random thoughts out of my system and two, nobody's probably reading this anyway.
It's funny how one day you're a student and the next day you're not. After 17 years, it's like there's a big blank space where September would normally be on the calendar. My graduation audit came in the mail a few days ago. Looks like my diploma will be approved, and I just gotta go to school to pick it up.
Living at home feels a little strange. My parents don't really bother me about when to go to bed or chores or anything like that. Still I think they're trying real hard to resist the temptation to treat me like I'm still in high school, you know - "take the garbage out," "vacuum the floor," "wash the dishes". I should probably help out more around the house seeing as how I'm living here rent free. I've just become so lazy (not like that's anything new). I could probably lose a few pounds doing housework, if my lazy fat ass ever gets around to it.
Y'see, I'm jobless. Just like the thousands of other recent graduates in this shitty economy. Yeah there's low level jobs that I could do, but I want something that'll look good for law school. Why did I ever not apply for this fall? I probably coulda got in to some decent schools... I can't stand myself sometimes when I have a clear goal, such as law school, and fail to follow through. I hate myself.
Well, at least I still got the ISC-ICC going for me, but I don't know for how much longer. I think I've ridden this horse about as far as I'm prepared to go, and I want to look for something else. The ICC in this country is hopeless as long as that dumbass Bush is president. Plus I'm not feeling as comfortable working with these people as I was just a few months ago. Maybe I just need a change of scenery, a new cause to get involved with, something to recharge my batteries. Maybe Professor Falk, who taught my International Law class, was right when she said that she quit being a human rights lawyer because it depressed her too much.
On a brighter note, though, I'm finally going out with someone after a 2 year drought in the love department! She's awesome. It's like she's got twice the energy that I do, packed into a body half my size. I just wish her mom would see her the way all her friends see her - as a smart, talented, and beautiful young woman. See, she goes home one day with a bit of a tan and the first thing her mom says to her is that she looks terrible because she's too dark. All together now, whaaaaa??? I can't imagine that kind of remark being appropriate in any situation. I hope she gets to talk to her mom like we discussed today, and talk some sense into her. Really, it's a week till she turns 21 but she's treated like she's 12. I really wish things will change for the better after she has a little heart to heart with her mom. I love you, JMGB. =)
