It's been nearly 2 months since graduation and I still haven't found a job. I've heard horror stories from Peyton about how she had to send over 100 resumes the summer after she graduated college. Or how my mom cried as she helped my dad type cover letters back when we were in Queens. Still, this is becoming ridiculous. And quite a bit discouraging. Somehow I can't shake the feeling that I'm just not good enough for any of these positions I'm applying for. That I've missed the boat while everyone around me was busy locking up job offers. That in the grand scheme of things, I'm a rank amateur with no business mixing with the pros.
Had a long talk with J about this, and I guess it helped calm my nerves down a bit. But now that she's started at UWNYC, it just sorta reinforces my own idleness... not that I have any hostility toward J's new internship. J suggested that I just need more time with friends... that I'm too isolated from everyone all the way out here in No. Bruns. I think she's right about that. I haven't hung out with any of the ACC since Orlando. I should call up the guys. Or maybe I should just get back to all the ISC work that's been piling up... just something to keep busy even if it's no longer as fulfilling as it used to be.
